Dream, Reality and Happiness.....

I love sports. I hope I could play any sports without any restrictions everyday. I hope to be a sportsman or a coach. Hence, I dream to have a working career that is related to sports.

I hate studying. I hate to do the assignments given by teachers. I hate to take exams. However, I love to chat with my friends in school. Hence, I dream of going to an educational institution where I could just chat with my friends without being troubled by assignments and exams.

I love to eat. I never dream of having abalone or shark fin for my daily meals. I just hope my daily meals can be tasty and filling. Hence, I dream of eating some nice and non-expensive food in Singapore.

I hate busy life. The fast and modern pace of Singapore’s life is killing me. I am just a boy who likes to appreciate and enjoy every single precious moment of life. Hence, I dream of getting back into a leisurely simple life.

Unfortunately,

I am doing engineering course in NUS now. The field of engineering most probably will be the area where I will start and end my working career for the rest of my life. Therefore, my dream to have a working career in sports’ field is dashed.

As I am studying in NUS now, I have to sit for plenty of “bloody hell” difficult and torturing exams in 4 years. I am not as good and smart as other NUS brilliant students. For me, I feel it is too competitive here. It is definitely not the academic life that I dream of.

Singapore is facing inflation nowadays. Price of general merchandise keeps rising. So is the price of food. As a result, I always have to pay a non-reasonable price for a little amount of non-delicious food especially when buying food in PGP!!!

I am bonded to work in Singapore for at least 3 years after graduating from NUS. Furthermore, I am in debt already as I have applied some other loans for my exceptionally high cost of living in Singapore. Thus, I have to work very very very hard after graduating as debt will make my future life like hell. Obviously, no leisure in future!!!

In fact, I am just a simple guy who is having some simple dreams and hoping for a simple life. I never hope of wanting to have high academic qualifications and a high-paid job. I just hope for a comfortable and simple life in future. If all my simple dreams can come true, I definitely and truly will be happy and contented. Nonetheless, reality is cruel. Reality doesn’t allow us to have an easy life. Dreams will not be easy to be realized in reality. Simplicity can be said unreachable.

Hence, if you ask me whether I am happy or not, I will tell you I am happy, but not truly and fully and I am definitely not contented as my dreams just can be my dreams forever. They have been ruined by reality.

Think of today...

When I was in primary school, I always dreamt too far and too much. I always dreamt of my future life in secondary school. I always dreamt of being a “real” guy that would be the main aim of my life...in my primary school! (My definition of “real” guy at that time was a guy who is wearing long pants, carrying a sling bag to school, hanging out with friends and has a height at least of 1.75m and a driving license). Hence, I always felt that living in the teenager’s life would be very interesting and full of fun.

When I succeeded going into secondary school, my dreams had come true. I have a height of 1.76m and I wore long pants and carried a sling bag to school. I also obtained my driving license when I was 17. I also hanged up with friends often. However, I still dreamt. I started dreaming of my life in university. Wearing spectacles; walking around the campus; chatting with friends; seeking for a girlfriend and joining a number of organizations. Those were all my illustrations of my varsity life in future.

I am now studying in NUS, a high-ranked university in the world. I am wearing a pair of spectacles now, walking around campus everyday, chatting with friends but I still don’t have any girlfriend and join any organizations.

By the way, I have already stopped dreaming now . To be more precise, I have stopped dreaming too far and too much.

I used to dream my future life, especially my academic life when I was young (I am still very young now) and I have used a lot of time in realizing the academic life I wanted. Fortunately, I have achieved the academic life I wanted before. Unfortunately, I found that I have lost and missed many things and moments that were important to me. That is the reason why I don’t dream too far anymore. I realized that once a person put too much of hope and effort in realizing his future dreams, he will start feeling that he is responsible in accomplishing his dreams or wishes. At the same time, he will lose or miss many other precious things and moments unconsciously. Eventually, a simple dream will become an unnecessary responsibility.

Future is an unknown. If we dream too much of future, it is not realistic.

Think of today!